ping 29 des 13

teu karasa geuning taun 2013 geus rek anggeus, sabenerna loba picaritaeun tapi salila ieu masih keneh ngacak aya geuning nu kasimpen di catetan di fesbuk, aya deui nu di simpen dina flesdis, tuluy loba keneh geuning nu teu ka tepi jeung hal-hal anu teu kaduga di taun ieu, nu tangtu bakal jadi peer pikeun taun nu sakeudeung deui bakal datang....

05 oct 13

0900 pm
   rasanya perlu jalan keluar, mendinginkan semua beban pikiran, beban yang mengganggu membuatku kehilangan fokus, membuat semuanya menjadi terasa tegang....

30 September 2013

a confession that I miss my step father, the real smart man, even sometime he make us all get angry but still we found some goodness on him, such as he always support us to do all thing good, allow us to choose how to live and I believe if he still alive today, he’s gonna prepare something good in the future for us. I think it’s a lil bit weird when your daddy still alive but you don’t love him and don’t care him too much, but this happen to me…I try to compare my dad with my step dad. and I found to many differences between them, my step dad is a real smart man, you can see when he talk, when he communicate with the other about business, politic, science etc…. and my dad, he’s stupid man act like a smartest one, speech too high, talk too much but no one will understand the point he try to explain.

            Talk about careness, hemz…you’ll be surprised coz my step dad spent a lot of money for my education, but him??? Don’t hope more, you can’t depend on him, their support??? When I try explain my willingness to join the Indonesian army to my step dad, he support me, he bring me to his friend a Indonesian army, he’s explain to him and they have an agreement, then he bring me to resort military command (KOREM) III Sunan Gunung Jati in Cirebon, West Java. But unfortunately there are no one of recruitment officer coz they have an important duty at that time to protecting the president of Indonesia.

            But before we both go to resort military command (KOREM), I’ve go to Jakarta to ask bless from my dad, he said that he support me but he says something bad about my willingness and that word make me feel down so deeply, I’ll never forget what he said to me at the dinning room that the army just like a buffalo, he’s mean that the army were stupid coz they only using the power and strength and can’t using their brain to think….

            And many more reason that I can’t tell, but it make me Hate him(my dad).

28 sept 13 II

dina peuting ayeuna, tepatna malem minggu. basa tadi jalan-jalan peuting teuing kunaon hate rada seseredetan, rada peurih, rada nyeri, lain harti nyeri nyaan ku gering tapi nyeri ku rasa, teuing pedah naha tapi nu jelas hate nyeredet. ceuk dina pikir ah geus ah teu kudu di caritakeun kakaitana jeung sejarah masa lalu, nu endah tapina kerasa kelam....

28 sept 13

poe ieu ping 28 sept 13 asana lamun teu salah kuring nulis kana ieu blog sanggeus lila absen teu nulis-nulis kana ieu diary, nu poe ieu bakal kuring tulis ngeunaan catetan jeung kahayang nu ngaliwat sababarah poe ka tukang. kuring hayang nyieun deui rencana nepi ka ujung taun ieu, kamari geus di catet sanajan catetana teu ka bawa tapi ari poin na mah kuring inget,
- kuring hayang ngumpulkeun deui duit, kusabab jujur we sabot eureun jadi pelaut, penghasilan jauh turuna, jang sorangan we ge masih remen kurang, teu bisa mere kulawarga tapi hayoh barang bere sudak-sodok, cugak-cogok ka batur kusabab pagaweana nungtut ka eta perkara....teu di kitu mah pagawean bisa jadi leuwih lila, ka saha????ka para pagawe pamarentah nu teu barogaeun komitmen pikeun bersih diri teuing pedah geus ngadarah daging....nepi ka kuring nyieun paribasa terima-kasih lain terima kasih, dimana urang narima tapi urang kudu mere...hahaha...nagara urang nunggu ancurna we ku kalakuan pagawe-pagawe pamarentah nu samodel kitu...biasana pamarentah mah buta, teuing teu kadeuleu, teuing kadeuleu tapi api-api teu nyaho, teuing kacepretan tea...???teuing ah...

nu matak bener ceuk urang deungeun basa harita gawe bareng jeung urang sabrang (thai) maranehna ngomong ieu nagara mangrupakeun nagara mafia... ah pek we ngeunteung sorangan, piraku teu kadeuleu kagorengan sorangan....

hayang neang wanoja pijadieun pamajikan, hahahaha.....nempo kana yuswa kuring sorangan nu ayeuna geus nincak umur 24 ku taun hareup geus 25, tinu wates target kuring teh pan harita maksimal yuswa 27 geus....hahahah.... tapi teuing!!!! keun kumaha engke we eta mah da urang mah ukur bisa ngusahakeun... kumaha jalan nu di bere ku hyang we...hayang gancang teh lain pedah kamari sang mantan nikah, lain....ah kanu masalah ieu mah geus sewang-sewang...ngan ngarasa geus waktuna we....hahahaha

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this live is a big question and chalange, our task to answer that...i've to believe that i can do that.!!!!!