30 September 2013

a confession that I miss my step father, the real smart man, even sometime he make us all get angry but still we found some goodness on him, such as he always support us to do all thing good, allow us to choose how to live and I believe if he still alive today, he’s gonna prepare something good in the future for us. I think it’s a lil bit weird when your daddy still alive but you don’t love him and don’t care him too much, but this happen to me…I try to compare my dad with my step dad. and I found to many differences between them, my step dad is a real smart man, you can see when he talk, when he communicate with the other about business, politic, science etc…. and my dad, he’s stupid man act like a smartest one, speech too high, talk too much but no one will understand the point he try to explain.

            Talk about careness, hemz…you’ll be surprised coz my step dad spent a lot of money for my education, but him??? Don’t hope more, you can’t depend on him, their support??? When I try explain my willingness to join the Indonesian army to my step dad, he support me, he bring me to his friend a Indonesian army, he’s explain to him and they have an agreement, then he bring me to resort military command (KOREM) III Sunan Gunung Jati in Cirebon, West Java. But unfortunately there are no one of recruitment officer coz they have an important duty at that time to protecting the president of Indonesia.

            But before we both go to resort military command (KOREM), I’ve go to Jakarta to ask bless from my dad, he said that he support me but he says something bad about my willingness and that word make me feel down so deeply, I’ll never forget what he said to me at the dinning room that the army just like a buffalo, he’s mean that the army were stupid coz they only using the power and strength and can’t using their brain to think….

            And many more reason that I can’t tell, but it make me Hate him(my dad).