a confession that I miss my step
father, the real smart man, even sometime he make us all get angry but still we
found some goodness on him, such as he always support us to do all thing good,
allow us to choose how to live and I believe if he still alive today, he’s
gonna prepare something good in the future for us. I think it’s a lil bit weird
when your daddy still alive but you don’t love him and don’t care him too much,
but this happen to me…I try to compare my dad with my step dad. and I found to
many differences between them, my step dad is a real smart man, you can see
when he talk, when he communicate with the other about business, politic,
science etc…. and my dad, he’s stupid man act like a smartest one, speech too
high, talk too much but no one will understand the point he try to explain.
Talk
about careness, hemz…you’ll be surprised coz my step dad spent a lot of money
for my education, but him??? Don’t hope more, you can’t depend on him, their
support??? When I try explain my willingness to join the Indonesian army to my
step dad, he support me, he bring me to his friend a Indonesian army, he’s
explain to him and they have an agreement, then he bring me to resort military
command (KOREM) III Sunan Gunung Jati in Cirebon, West Java. But unfortunately
there are no one of recruitment officer coz they have an important duty at that
time to protecting the president of Indonesia.
But
before we both go to resort military command (KOREM), I’ve go to Jakarta to ask
bless from my dad, he said that he support me but he says something bad about
my willingness and that word make me feel down so deeply, I’ll never forget
what he said to me at the dinning room that the army just like a buffalo, he’s
mean that the army were stupid coz they only using the power and strength and
can’t using their brain to think….
And
many more reason that I can’t tell, but it make me Hate him(my dad).
